Porn? … Huh?

Hello, Lovelies.

Many of you have asked me what got me into porn, and I am prepared to give you full disclosure. I graduated high school when I was 16, and soon after I received my license in Reflexology. That’ll come into play in a little bit..

At the first spa I worked at, I had people asking me all the time for happy endings. I felt a little insulted, and brushed off their request instantly. My first real introduction into the adult world was when I was 17, and I had a secretary job. When I first applied for the job I didn’t realise it was more of a “sexretary” position rather than secretary. Have any of you ever seen the movie “The Secretary”? Its similar to the movie in the sense that it involved sadomasochism. At the start of the job I wasn’t very sexually experienced, so it made me vulnerable and I’m sure I was seen in a very submissive light. Oddly enough I never actually slept with my boss. This job made me very curious about my sexuality, and what interests I had. I wasn’t sure how I felt about being “punished” and what not, and I still have things in that realm that I’m interested in trying (hence I’m looking forward to doing a little fetish work eventually). But he is the one who influenced me to head into the adult world.

I left the spa I was working at a month or two before I started the secretary position, and began doing outcall massages. It allowed me to work whatever and however many hours I pleased, be picky about my clientele, allowed me to make more than twice what I was making before, etc. Not too long after my boss made me more curious about my sexuality, I also had someone who needed some help financially. I knew the kind of money I could potentially make, but I just didn’t want to be.. that person. After being approached by yet another needy man, I didn’t immediately shut it down. I knew the position I was in, and I knew the promises that I needed to fulfill to my friend in need. I also always had a secret curiosity of it from reading a blog on an erotic masseuse when I was younger. This time I was backed into a corner (don’t worry), and a little naive. Its almost as if I couldn’t say no.. for whatever reason. But I’ve learned a lot from that day, and from other situations I put myself in relating to the same thing. A lot of people say they’re two different worlds, yet after being part of both, I’ve found that they are very similar. So when I found myself doing porn, no, it wasn’t like me, but at the same time it wasn’t much different from what I was doing before – except for the fact that it was on camera. The massages were also like porn because it’s a period of my life that I don’t look back on feeling proud of myself, but regardless of everything else, I enjoyed it.. I enjoyed it very much. And at the end of the day isn’t that what really matters?

The final step.

I flew down to South Florida last summer with my best friend. I, for a two day weekend getaway, and she, to test out the porn business. I fell in love with the area the first day I was down here! What I find to be the funniest thing is that I wasn’t even too keen on coming down in the first place. But hey, everything happens for a reason, right? One of the head people from Reality Kings saw me, and offered me a contract before I even shot for anyone! I felt very blessed. Personally, I would never wish any part of the business on anyone. As they say, every blessing is a curse. I know I’m very lucky to have received such an opportunity like this, just remember that it isn’t all a cakewalk.

The weirdest thing about me doing porn is the fact that I used to have my nose up in the air about the subject. I never had anything against performers, but I thought that it degraded relationships. I also see the other side of things – its obviously better than going out and physically cheating on your partner. A long term boyfriend when I was younger seemed to watch porn a lot (or so I thought at the time), and it gave me many uncertainties – perhaps even a few insecurities. Looking back I believe that is another big reason as to why I started down a path that eventually led me to the industry. All of those other men made me realise that there was no reason why I wasn’t good enough for the aforementioned (ex) boyfriend. And after coming to that conclusion I miraculously discovered something that was very new, and useful in life – COMMUNICATION! Anyways.. I found that I liked being the one on the screen rather than the one wondering why he’s looking at the screen instead of me. Selfish? Maybe a little..

So, now you know. Now stop judging me, you hypocritical bitches. 😛 just kidding. Think what you want.. but I don’t regret a day of it. It was all great fun, and I learned a lot about myself, other people, and life. One of the best things was that I gained knowledge, and received insight on other peoples perspectives about many things. I will cherish those lessons, evermore. I am happy to say that I’m sure any of you could walk into my life, I, with open arms.. and at least I would be able to understand, even if I didn’t agree.

 

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44 thoughts on “Porn? … Huh?

  1. Daniel says:

    Thank u for sharing, I respect u and glad to see u succeed, I love watching u and think u are incredibly beautiful

  2. Johnny says:

    Hooray! Finally a new post. Thank you Shae. As I said before, speaking from a perspective of a man who has seen a LOT of porn, you bring a pure erotic sensuality and smoldering, raw…”something” to your scenes that leaves the others far, far behind you. If you ever wish to explore some of your fetish fantasies and or find yourself in need of an awesome Sugar Daddy, email me. I can make things happen for you in ways and places you have never even imagined.You strike me as a very happy woman, someone with a spiritual side to her as well..
    I would love to speak with you privately sometime. You are just AWESOME beyond words..xoxox

  3. hoophomer says:

    I love what you are doing here. It is so nice to read your blog posts here because they allow you more space than a tweet and are so clearly from your heart ( and what an incredibly rare, sweet, pure heart it is), sharing who you are beyond the hot sexy girl we see having sex.

    I found it fascinating to read the process you have gone through to get to where you are now. And I don’t mean just the physical process from spa/sexretary/outcall massage etc but also the mental process you have gone through in how your sexual exploration has helped you understand your relationships and happiness.

    Because of your honest talk about the porn business, how there is a side to the porn industry that you don’t wish upon anyone, that it is a blessing and a curse…it made me kind of conflicted because it seems there is part of you that doesn’t like the business ? But if not for you being a porn star there is no way I would ever have known about you. I would never gotten to jerk off while I watch you suck a big cock, or your boobs jiggle and bounce around uncontrollably while you take a deep dicking, or see you take a glorious load of hot thick cum sprayed over your pretty face and I know how much I love seeing you do all of that :). But more than that I would never have gotten to know the person you are through this blog, twitter, camming, pre-scene interviews etc. Porn star or not I know now you are just an amazing girl with an amazing personality and amazing future and I am so happy and lucky that we are able to interact online. But if not for porn, I never know who you are, and that would be my loss

    I would so love the chance to spend a couple together share a cup of tea together (have you started reading that tea book I got you?), or drive aimlessly nowhere in particular, or have a playdate for our dogs (how was puppy shopping today?) But I don’t know even if I came to where you are sometime if you would actually meet a fan for a few hours who just wants to share in the bright glow your aura radiates.

    • Respect!!

      After reading this post, the respect for you has increased ten fold. And I appreciate the kind of woman you are, that is, self made. You didn’t hesitate about any job you were doing and you had such confident in yourself, which is a very rare trait.

      Not many woman think like you do, but your perspective is clear and you set your own destiny. You didn’t know where you were going to be a few years down the line, but you welcomed with open arms whatever came before you.

      I’m glad I got to know the person you are and your inner feelings, the way you described your past gave me and insight and inspiration in some kind. I pray that GOD bless you and may your dreams come true regardless of what others think!

      You go girl! If not anyone, I’m and will be, not by your side but, with you all the time.

  4. pedro says:

    Hola me gusto su franqueza /’ bueno yo tengo poco siguiéndola y se me hase muy interesante como piensas te deseo que todos tus proyectos se realisen bye un beso

  5. Aftab says:

    Regardless of what happens always keep your self esteem and confidence high and be smart.

    Anyways, I think you’re awesome!

      • Aftab says:

        🙂
        I got replied too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
        Best Of Luck!!! And hope you’re doing well!!!

      • sheeraz saleem says:

        u r the most gorgoues girls i have ever seen…. perfect body i just love watching u…. u r adorable… wish i culd hug u n fuck u…. luv u…

  6. Alex says:

    “Shae,”

    Thank you so much for another great post! Your insight and perspective give a face to porn stars that I had never considered before. I know what you mean about having a persona that you can take on and off, and how that can lead you to feel differently about yourself as a person!

    I look forward to your future posts!

    • Alex, I’m so happy that I was able to give you another view on things. You really have no idea how happy that makes me. Also keep in mind that a lot of stereotypes are true for the masses, but there are always exceptions.

  7. Johnny says:

    Very honored and happy that I inspired you to keep writing (btw, I also started a juice cleanse because of you!! ) and thank you so much for the emails!! You absolutely made my day 🙂 I sent you an invite to chat so we can discuss my offers in private.

  8. I have something in common with you. I too am a massage therapist and have had my share of men that want a happy ending. I am just not into men, but for the ladies that ask for it there hasn’t been a problem. Lucky they have been attractive. When you make it to Hawaii, I’ll give you a real, professional massage.You get a happy ending only if you ask for it. One suggestion i your porn. I notice that you always close your eyes. We love your eyes.Please open them wide;

    • When I was in the business I never actually had any women clientele. I had inquiries, but I feel they’re a little more.. shy about things? I don’t know. I’m curious.. they just come out and ask for it, or? Thinking about doing it myself (asking for one) makes me feel a little awkward, actually. I know, I almost always close my eyes 😦 I’m sorry. Its an intimacy thing, but I will try my best to keep them open in scenes to come.

      • Mostly, believe it or not, its their husbands/boyfriends that do the requesting. You can understand that it has to be perfectly clear what they want or I can really get into trouble. Sometimes the girl will make it clear on the phone that she is expecting a “sensual” massage. It doesn’t happen very often.
        I’m looking forward to seeing you with your eyes open more. In my mind you will be doing it for me, thinking about my request,

      • I saw your latest videos. you have become my favorite porn star. Will you do me a favor and in your next video,with a cock in your mouth or in your pussy think of me and open your eyes wide and give me a wink. I’ll think it is especially for me.(and so will everybody else).
        I’ve got an idea for a shoot. It involves going to Hawaii. You rent a nice place right on the beach, call an outcall massage service to come give you a massage. (He happens to be a big fan of yours,) You want a ‘happy ending’. See where it goes from there. Aloha,
        Larry

      • I just watched a couple of your new videos.. You did a good job of looking right into the camera. It’s like you are looking right at me, And I’m sure it is like that for whoever is watching. Congratulations! You went from being a very good porn actress to being a porn star so fast. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to fuck anybody as much as I want to fuck you now. Keep it up.

  9. Dan says:

    Amazing how long it can take to figure out the “communication” thing! Interesting story of how you got to where you are. I was wondering while reading what is next for you? I hope more then just sugar daddies.

    • I’m glad you allowed me to share my story with you. I haven’t had the “sugar daddy experience” yet, possibly one day. I’m not sure it really suits me, but I think it would be a fun and interesting experience. I’ve had a lot of offers before, and I think the fact that I haven’t accepted one speaks a lot. It makes me wonder why that is because its not that I see something wrong with it.. perhaps it just wouldn’t be enough for me. Whats next for me? I’m figuring some things out right now.. so I can’t say for sure. I’m in school right now, loving porn, and taking life day by day. Stay in touch, Dan.

  10. Carlos says:

    You’re very smart girl, I really enjoyed reading your blog, you had very interesting experiences,
    I think that although there are things that we regret having made, those things make us be who we are.
    Glad you’re happy with your entry to porn and nobody should judge you for doing what you do.
    Anyway, I hope to read more from you and I wish you much success!!!

  11. Dan says:

    Thanks for the reply. Glad to hear your in school, have to plan for the future as much as you can. I was wondering after time in the industry how do you feel about men? Would think you could get very jaded about men after being in the industry. Also would think all the random dudes (like me ;)) sending you all kinds of messages would get weird or just exhausting. How do you handle that? Can email me if prefer if rather not post your honest answer: ddded77@gmail.com. Take care and good luck with everything.

    • Erik says:

      Hello Shae,
      Thank you for your post. I enjoyed it a lot and it changed my attitude to a people from your industry. You are smart and attractive person. I look forward to your new posts and I would like to talk to you some day. I wish your dreams come true. Good luck)

  12. JD says:

    Hello Shae.Love reading your blog.You are so beautiful and truely seem like a nice person.Would love to hear more about your stories from the spa and out call massages if you would like to share.Was there ever anything that shocked you while doing it like cock size or amount of cum?Ever given a man of the darker variety a happy ending?Thank you for sharing.

  13. Ken Burroughs says:

    Love reading your blog Shae it reveals as a honest sweet and beautiful young woman. It also reminds us not to judge by people by their profession which I do not do. Again I enjoy your blog and all your social sites. Sweet dreams my dear Shae.

  14. I wrote your name in the sky but the wind blows and threw it all away, I wrote your name in the sand but the wind blows and crashes it all away, I wrote your name in my heart and forever it will stay..—> THE MESSENGER <—

  15. oldguinness says:

    have a few questions, and thoughts and well….. you are wow, enjoyed your blog and your vids and pics, did not know if you would go into more detail on when you realized you were the bosses sexretary and what happen or was said on the day when it was your first time…..giving in as it were too the clients request for sex, I understand if you do not want too tell me or blah…….just thought it would be very erotic……I have not read all of your blogs but your curious if you have had multiple guys at once or sex with a total stranger that you thought yes, and if you ever have anal before porn or after porn…..You are sexy look very yum too lick and innocent looking and well yeahhhh boobies, love them. Thanks for hmmmm just thanks….you made me smile

  16. Dan says:

    Very refreshing to actually get to know the person behind the star, if only a little. I think it completes the package of being beautiful on the outside and on the inside. One question, if I may – I saw on a website somewhere that you are of Asian ethnicity. If true, which one in particular? Keep up with the posting, Shae! Don’t say we don’t keep the pressure on to inspire you to post! 🙂

  17. i love to read all of those things and i also love the way you do it on AV. 🙂 ❤ HOW I WISH TO SEE YOU . :/ Pls add me on facebook .i will be honored if you do so. I RESPECT YOU 🙂

  18. Nue Ching cha says:

    I’ve have a friend who’s a big fan of you when he saw your exotic pictures say he wants to bang that chick I’ve laughed at him told him u had to find her in Vegas even though he has a girlfriend already and looking at you I say you’re more of a woman I like to treat u like one I don’t know what know u do 4 at your break time from porn but I had a feeling that you’ll keep succeeding your goal keep up the hard work I’ll like 2 see the hotness and cuteness in your pornography

  19. GregML says:

    Yes, well I can understand why people, both male and female, would want to share a sensual-primeval-salacious happy ending with you. They were defiantly thinking of ‘Shae Summers’ when they coined the phrase “Face of an Angel, body built for Sin” Hope all your endings are happy ones, and you follow and find all your dreams you sweet precious You.

  20. Paulie says:

    Cool story Hansel lol. All kidding aside, I’m happy you choose porn and not the other way around. You’re absolutely breathtaking and I love your work.
    Peace-
    Paulie

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